Dose Of Chevvi

Author: Shavesha Steele | ChevviInLaw

  • The girl that lives inside me

    The girl inside me, she crept in like a thief in the night

    A festering word, poisoning my soul with blight

    Infecting my organs, a dark force taking hold

    A shadow in my heart, a story left untold

    She lingers in the depths, a haunting specter of pain

    A relentless tormentor, driving me insane

    Whispers of darkness, echoing in my mind

    A curse I can’t shake, a truth I can’t unwind

    I try to resist, to push her away

    But she’s a part of me, here to stay

    The girl inside me, a raw and primal force

    A reminder of my battles, a source of remorse

    She may be a thief in the dark, a poison in my veins

    But she’s a part of who I am, bound by invisible chains

    The girl that lives inside me, a raw and untamed beast

    A constant reminder of pain, a relentless inner feast.

    So I carry her with me, this girl inside my core

    A reminder of my struggles, a battle fought before

    She may be a thief in the night, a festering word within

    But she’s a part of who I am, a story that will never end.

  • The potter

    The potter



    I am but clay in the hands you've molded,
    A vessel shaped by your divine will,
    Formed from earth and air, a creation beholden,
    To the likeness of kings, to heavenly heights I still.

    Confessions spill as I gaze upon your word,
    Refreshing streams of truth wash over me,
    Awakening from suppression, my soul stirred,
    From depths of depression, I finally see.

    An accomplice to my own undoing,
    Victim of my self-inflicted pain,
    Dreams obscured by shadows, mind's pursuing,
    A virus of doubt, my spirit to restrain.

    Haunted by regrets, enslaved by mind's folly,
    Clutching memories that turn to foes,
    Love's elusive grasp, a hollow melancholy,
    Heart bruised, weary from endless blows.

    But within this broken vessel lies a truth,
    The Potter's hands have shaped me whole,
    From flaws to bylaws, from pain to proof,
    In the Creator's embrace, I find my soul.
  • A Soul’s Awakening

    A Soul’s Awakening

    Life, a battleground, she cried out loud,
    In her sea of sorrow, deep and profound.
    Scars etched in her soul, deeper than the sea,
    Every negative word a crashing wave, relentless and free.

    Whispers of the waves, a mournful sound,
    Her lips, ocean blue, no solace found.
    Words danced upon the tumultuous swell,
    A wrecking ball of pain, each strike a hell.

    Her body screamed, thunderous clash in the night,
    Regret's melody, haunting, taking flight.
    Reaching to the heavens, hand stretched wide,
    Pleading with the gods, from darkness to stride.

    Demons lurked, shadows weaving their spell,
    Darkness descending, her spirit to quell.
    Soul possessed, will shattered like glass,
    Yet she fought on, each breath a gasp.

    But darkness crept closer, reality stark and cold,
    Her fragile mind shaken, her spirit untold.
    Amid the vile words, her path seemed narrow,
    Yet in the distance, a flicker, a spark to borrow.

    Within the shadows, a glimmer of light,
    Hope ignited within, fierce and bright.
    Darkness turned to dawn, her soul revived,
    In that raw moment, she truly felt alive.
  • wounded

    wounded


    In the silent depths where shadows roam,
    My pain resides, a silent tome.
    Time's passage fades hearts, leaves them lone,
    Life's twists alter destinies unknown.

    The agony I've borne through years untold,
    Echoes louder than tales of old.
    A haunting addiction, consuming whole,
    A gnawing disease, taking its toll.

    Where lies the promise of "ever after"?
    In this world, distant laughter.
    I harbour a secret, too fearful to confess,
    Afraid of losing dignity, beauty's caress.

    Unready for battle, I long for light,
    Craving love's chimes, banishing night.
    Do not let me slip into the abyss's sway,
    For life's grasp consumes both night and day.

    Fragility echoes, easily broken,
    Memories twisted, left unspoken.
    Tragic, how hopeless memories cascade,
    Rendering my spirit, fragile, swayed.

    Behind painted smiles, my soul weeps,
    Gracefully broken, as darkness creeps.
    Within, my heart lies shattered and faded,
    A testament to life, painfully jaded.

     

  • Shades of love

    Shades of love


    Take the pain that lingers, let it rise, let it flow,
    Through the cracks of my soul, let emotions overflow.

    Some say I'm crazy, but in my truth, I'm sane,
    Waiting for my moment, to break free from the chain.
    If only there was a way to erase the past,
    To banish the hurt, to make it the last.

    So don't just watch as I fade away,
    In the depths of despair, where shadows play.
    Fight for me, hear my silent plea,
    Every ache, every throb, sets my spirit free.

    Love once felt like a dream, so far from reach,
    But with you, it's real, a lesson I teach.
    Break the curse, let me see your light,
    Guide me through the darkness, make everything right.

    Let me feel again, with just a touch, a kiss,
    With you, love blooms, it's something I'd never miss.
    They can't hold me now, I'm breaking free,
    Your voice, a beacon, guiding me to be.

    Tough on the outside, but inside, I'm soft,
    You're my monster, and I'm willing to be lost.
    Hold the strings, let's dance in the rain,
    Love may be fragile, but it's our eternal flame.

    We're shades of madness, wild and free,
    You breathe life into me, you're my destiny.
    The missing piece, in a puzzle so vast,
    My inspiration, my love, built to last.

    It may seem uncertain, but for you, I'll try,
    Never too late for love, let's spread our wings and fly.
    For a girl like me, with walls held so high,
    Loving with my heart, not just my mind, I'll defy.

    I'll fill your heart until it's bursting with me,
    Until you see, until you finally believe.
    It took time to realize, your love's plea,
    But now, I see it, you loved me, you love me.
  • Hidden in the dark

    Hidden in the dark

    In the depths of contemplation,
    I wrestle with a weighty decision,
    Should I have released you from my grasp,
    And set you free to roam?

    Lost amidst a storm of thoughts,
    My mind wanders aimlessly,
    Trapped in a state of mental paralysis,
    Caught in a relentless whirlwind.

    Like a prisoner in a dream,
    I struggle to break free,
    For years, I held onto the belief,
    That you were my steadfast companion,
    My trusted confidant.

    But when the darkness descended,
    And I reached out for your hand,
    You vanished into the shadows,
    Leaving me to face the night alone.

    Why endure the agony of your absence,
    Why subject myself to such torment,
    Why shatter my spirit without purpose?

    With nothing left to bind me,
    I rewrite the script of my existence,
    Turning my back on pain,
    And embracing the promise of renewal.

    Together, let us stand against injustice,
    Let courage be our guiding star,
    No longer will we wallow in despair,
    For we are warriors of the soul.

    May the wisdom of the heavens,
    Illuminate our path,
    As we journey towards liberation,
    And embrace the dawn of a new day.